I'm sitting here at my desk tonight and 3 pictures of three wonderful little boys look back at me. Their names? Jarren, Ethan and Brandon. I haven't met these boys and know that I may never have that opportunity. However as I look at these pictures I can't help but feel a love for them. You see these are Tim's sons. (Jonathan even looks at the pictures and says "these are my big brothers). I have heard stories about what they were like when they were younger. How Jarren likes video games and reading. Stories of the mischief that Ethan would cause. I see the love Tim has for those boys and the regret that he feels. He knows the choices he made has made it so his boys don't know him and may not want to know him...ever. As a mother I can't begin to imagine how that would feel even when I try. I wish that one day these precious boys can see the man Tim has become, the kind of man they needed him to be. He knows that is where he is now but fears that they will never see it and if they do, they won't believe it. I love all the men/boys in my life, the ones with me and the ones that are not. I wish so much for their happiness and safety. All of them
I don't have much of a point just rambling. Their pictures just caught my eye and I wrote. Love you all!!!
Monday, December 15, 2008
The other boys in my life!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Friday, October 17, 2008
Intelligence Validation
So Wednesday night I was working on my scene design ground plot assignment. Jonathan and Sabrina would switch between watching TV with me(Yes I do my homework in front of the TV. It keeps me with my kids), playing in their room and telling Tim all about their day. So anyway Sabrina came out and sat right next to me. She would look at my drawing, watch me measure then look at me. After doing this 4 or 5 times she looks at me and we have the following conversation....
Sabrina: Mommy?
Me : Yes sweetheart?
(I look at her, she smiles and just looks at me for a few seconds.)
Sabrina: You're really smart mommy. Do you think I can be as smart as you?
Me: (After I got over the shock) Of course you can Sabrina. In fact you will probably be even smarter than mommy one day.
Sabrina: Nobody's smarter that you mommy. I glad you go to school like me. I love you.
After that she gave me a hug, a kiss and ran off to play.
Since Jonathan started school this year I started thinking about all the homework I will help him with in the next 13 years. Of course like most parents I started thinking "will I be able to remember everything and know how to help him or will I let him down?" Well I don't know about the future but at least my children think I'm smart now and want to learn from me.
what better Validation of her intelligence does a mother need?
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Parent/Teacher Conference
Today I had my first ever parent/teacher conference for Jonathan. I have never had a prouder moment. Jonathan is scoring high marks in everything they are working on. I have to admit I was a little nervouse about his "hyperness" and how that would affect him. He sits and listens. He is the first one done with his assignments and he does them great. He is already starting to write words and trying to get sentences. I was really proud of the fact that he dosen't interrupt, he respects his peers and their property and he asks for help when he needs it right away. Those are the three things we have been working with the kids on and it makes me so proud to know he does it when he is away from home and not just here.
As any mother would I got really proud when his teacher said he is one of the students she looks forward to having in her class every day. She said everyday he comes in with a big smile and says "Good morning, teacher. I'm here". Then his smile never leaves. He has it all throughout the day.
I have to say: I really lucked out with my children are so very proud of them.
Well. More news later!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
What is new?
So I figured since it's been awhile I thought I would update you all. I started a new semester this fall in the theatre department and am loving it. I decided that this semester there would be no plays for me. And the best part is that I am living up to this decision. Those of you who really know me know how hard that is. I am taking directing, scene design, Survey of Dance and Anthropology: Science, Magic and Religion. Woo Wee a busy semester but it is going excellent. I am working full time and selling Mary Kay as well. I love it. I finally found something that takes off the stage make-up without drying out my skin. Woo Hoo!!!!
Tim is great. He and the kids have lots of fun while they are here. They laugh and play and cuddle. They have really gotten close to him. It's so cute to hear Jonathan and Sabrina tell him they love him. Sabrina tells me every night that Tim keeps us safe while we sleep. It's good that they know how much he cares for and loves them.
I love my family and am so excited to celebrate our one year anniversary in November. It's hard to believe it's been that long already. I am so happy. Love you all and I'll try to write more often.
Sabrina's 4th Birthday
Sabrina turned 4 on September 21st. She got to celebrate it with her friend Luna, Kira, and Sidney. She asked for three things this year. She wanted, Dora, Barbies, and Mermaids. Well I couldn't let her down so she has a Dora b-day cake made by MOM (her specifications) that was strawberry with white icing and sprinkles. She also got a her mermaid from mommmy and a mermaid barbie from Grandma! She also got to choose her dinner: Steak and Aunt Linda's Great Potatoes!!! All in all she had a great day! (Jonathan even made her bed for her)
Sunday, July 20, 2008
We love our kids!!!!!
Today We got the kids home again and I have to say that is the best feeling in the world. It is so good to hear that they miss and love us but it is so much better when they show us.
At church today they were little angles. We are down to only one activity each for them to do during Sacrament and no snacks or drinks. They are getting so big. They even decided to not do anything but sit next to mommy and listen. We're so proud of them. They know the rules and what is expected of them and are just perfect children.
Just this morning we didn't have to remind them of the schedule when they get home. They went right down stairs, put their shoes away and put away their clean clothes. Then they picked out their church clothes and told mommy they were ready. How precious are they? I now understand why me and my siblings doing stuff like that made mom so happy.
So all in all We Love our Jonathan and Sabrina.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
What would I change?
I was asked this question today and thought I would answer it in my blog...
If you could re-do an event in your life, which event would it be?
I'm sure most people would think that I would redo my first marriage, maybe the who, the when or even the why. I would have to say not at all. There were reasons we got married and their names are Jonathan and Sabrina. I love my two children so much and know they will never understand the amount. I will tell you that I did love the Ernie I married but honestly not the one I divorced. I will not lie about that. But unfortunatley lies caused all the problems. Dad taught me at a young age that lying will not work, or save anything. I wish I would have remembered that. All I will say is that if you lie to your spouse about something (for years) that you claim only affects you... you are only lying to yourself.
Anyway back to the question...
To be completely honest I would not change one thing! Everything that I went through as a child, all that I have do up to today has made me the person that I am. I have to say that I am a wonderful wife and mother. I am as independent and as intelligent that my father ever hoped for; and stubborn enough to stay that way. I hope that everyone remembers:
"You are who you are, no more, no less!"
Be thankful and thoughtful of who you are. Don't dwell on the past or look to the future. Be who you are today and you can respect yourself. After all isn't that what matters? I know I can look at myself in the mirror and see me: A STRONG DAUGHTER OF GOD.
So would I re-do anything? NO!!!!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
TRUE LOVE
MY MOMWednesday, June 25, 2008
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Not so good news :(
Well it's been a while with the baby update because I miscarried again. Sorry I haven't told any of you sooner. I've been trying to deal with it. Thankfully I have my amazing husband that makes me feel confident that this is just a minor set back and that we will be able to welcome a baby into our home soon. I love and miss all of you and thank you for your love and support as well.
By the way I will be adding some new pictures within the next few weeks. So keep checking.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Our Big News of the Day!!!!
Today... May 17,2008 We found out that we are going to have a BABY!!! I will be making my doctor's appointment next week and will keep you informed of due dates and that fun stuff.....
How did it happen?
For those of you who don't know....
Tim and Joyce met at A&H Cellular in Idaho when Tim decided to buy a phone. And who do you think sold it to him? You guessed it...Joyce did. So after Joyce's divorce became final Tim and Joyce started talking marriage. First they figured January of 2008 was good, but then they would be in school. So they moved it to Christmas Break. Well Leya (Joyce's sister) was smart enough to remind us that Christmas with the kids would be easier if we were already married. So we then moved it up to December 8, 2007 and when Joyce told her mom, mom said she was going to be in Utah for Thanksgiving. So Tim and Joyce hurried the plans and got married over Thanksgiving in Utah. Unfortunatley this left a lot of our loved ones out but keep an ear out for our big wedding celebration. When we have enough time to breath we will all party together. We are still planning on getting sealed together when we can.
